Just got this letter from Singapore Polytechnic saying that my GCE “O” Level Results and CCA Achievement (lolwhut?) qualifies me for the SP Scholars Programme.
Sounds pretty prestigious. And yes, I’m considering to apply for this programme. And yes, at the same time, I’m kind of hesistant to do so. So yeah, I am, once again, in a dilemma.
Anyway, this programme is all about developing and maximising intellectual and leadership potential. SP Scholars undergo special training in leadership, communication & interview skills, current affairs, and undertake overseas community service projects.
I’m thinking of applying for this for several reasons. One of which is because I think I should be more active and try to do things I don’t usually do and make the most of my time instead of just, you know, sitting in front of the computer. It may also be a good opportunity for me to change. The more practical reason for applying is of course because it will make me look good when I want to apply for University.
On the other hand, I’m also reluctant. I don’t know if I want to change. I mean, I kinda like being an introvert and my indifferent and apathetic personality. And I don’t know if I would fit in with the rest of the people. Surely, these people are the kind who enjoys being with other people. Or is that just an assumption? And there’s also that laziness of mine. Always a problem.
I’ve never considered myself of having good leadership qualities. I just couldn’t care less about those kind of things. That’s part of the reason why I’m hesitant. The programme might not be suited for me. But it could also be an opportunity to groom my leadership qualities. That’s part of the reason why I want to apply. I mean, if I want to be somebody, I need to stand out right? And just being good academically isn’t enough.
When I decided to go to Poly instead of JC, I decided that I would perhaps be more active in my CCA or something. Pragmatically because it’ll make me look good when I apply for University. Is this programme the ‘answer’ or something?
Anyway, I need to decide by 31st of March.
*Sigh* Well, at least I know what would be my topic of internal discussion to make me go to sleep tonight.
sugan said,
March 23, 2009 at 11:07 pm
dude! i am from sp too and received the same letter. Caught in the same dilemma too. wad if it is just a waste of time? or just time-consuming? haiz…total confusion!